Friday, March 21, 2008
Tap Out
I am happy to report that Addy has been sleeping much better than she was a month or so ago when I posted about it. She still struggles with naps during the day, but usually sleeps very well at night. I am sad to report that last night was not a night where she wanted to sleep well. She normally wakes up around 2:30 or 3:00 a.m.(or sometimes even 4:00 if I'm lucky!) to eat and then wakes up again to start the day around 6:30. Last night she woke up around 12:15 and I was not about to go feed her, since I had been asleep for about an hour at that time. She can usually go about 8-9 hours without eating at night, she had only gone 6. Anyway, an hour later with her still screaming her lungs out and with me about to lose my mind I finally went and got her! Ryan was still up doing homework and when we went to bed I told him that it would be nice if as a mom I could choose to tap out. I am not a big fan of ultimate fighting, but Ryan enjoys it sometimes. If you've ever watched it, it's basically a combination of boxing and wrestling. When one of the fighter's has had all they can take they tap out and the fight is over. I think it would be nice if as a mom I could just tap out when I've had all I can take and have a break. (i.e. last night!) I know that those of you with more kids than me are probably annoyed to hear me complaining in such a manner, but I feel I need to vent a bit. I also think that as mom's (and even more so with LDS moms, if you ask me!) we feel pressured for everyone to think our life is always great, our kids are always great and we are just perfect. I'm not trying to be Debbie Downer (as my sister Jocelyn would say!) here, because I do love being a mother and feel it is very rewarding at times. However, it is also very difficult at times and I am far from perfect at it!
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It's good to read about someone being real on here and not just writing about how wonderful everything is; i.e. their baby, husband, life, etc. You know it's not true! Everyone has a bad day every once in awhile. I had one of those days on Wednesday. Hallie was being such a crab and I really wanted to leave! I'm just glad everyday isn't like or I would really go insane.
Amen, sister. I was talking with a friend a couple days ago about how we deal with things by drinking archer farms italian soda and Izzie sparkling waters and we were wondering how soon is too soon to start drinking booze for the moms who drink.
Cause dude. Being a mom is so soul sucking sometimes! I hope you meet some mommies your age down there to hang out with and commiserate with soon! I always find comfort and humor in my mommy friends stories and it helps me remember that all this stuff will be water under the bridge soon enough.
Oh Melissa, why oh why are you here typing about husbands and babies when I know darn well you are only 14!!!! It seems so strange!!
Don't worry, even with more kids, I think sleepless nights are the worst thing about kids -- well, except for "whining" -- you'll experience that soon enough. So you are justified in a good bit of complaining. It is the one thing that frightens me most about having babies!! I hope she sleeps better soon. Life is soo much more enjoyable after a real night's sleep. It is a positive that your baby is so darn cute though!!
P.S. I love the tap out idea. I could use that so so often! . . . perhaps the only way we'll ever get to tap out though is to take up ultimate fighting
Melissa!!!!! I was so glad that you found me!! You have a beautiful family and I can't wait to read all about you guys and get caught up!! You are just as beautiful as ever!! Your Addy is a doll!!! I totally understand what you are saying about tapping out. I wish I could tap out sometimes too!! That's probably one of the hardest things about being a mom is that it's 24/7. Don't feel bad about expressing yourself because you have one child. You are still a mom and it's still very demanding!! It looks like you are doing an incredible job!!
I can't believe it's been so long!! Time flys!! I'm glad that we can keep in touch better now!!! Your amazing!
There are times when I wish I could complete tap out of life. Not just as a mom, but just the whole kit-and-kaboodle (I'm easing what I'm saying by using the phrase "kit-and-kadoodle"). Never anticipate anything being perfect or anyone expecting you to be perfect. That's just not the way it should roll. I think it's perfectly justifiable to complain some every now and then and to also feel burdened. If you didn't, that would be completely abnormal. At least she's adorable so you won't have to try and put her up for adoption...and at least she's not eight and still not sleeping through the night (which I feel I must remind you could be an all too true reality and pray that it never happens).
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